fear is not real, but in your mined from worry about the Future that bring you pain and death getting hurt, fear is our enemy that makes us weak, and keep us trap from getting our dreams and glows, and being free from living the fool life, don't worry about how many misstate you have done, as you will always make dam ass misstate any way for life, fuck the people that think they are right and tell you whats is right from wrong, and always making you Listening to them, think about your life is same? is it the same there life of living? but truth is that bullshit, as I broke the Chane from my bother, and every one less that try to Control me with fear and putting me down by killing my dream not relies that there killing me also by taking away my hopes and faith of finding true love, put I got no fear for anything even if I lose my money my things and my time on earth at less I fucking fight for my dream, to everyone that knows me and think I'm a stupid man, who fucking care I'm not same as everyone I do what its right for me even if this is a misstate this is my life and my story, so don't let fear Control you.

I believe that everyday life is more like a surprise gift, meaning you will never know what tomorrow will bring until it comes, that to me is the most scary part to face everyday not knowing what will tomorrow bring us, same as a gift from each of ur friends and family, some are amazing wow! and some are really bad, that you want to cry, I know for a fact that we cant Control what tomorrow will bring, because we cant take a little peek from the Future to come, but good or bad life will always be a surprise Drama...........

mirror are truth of who we are, as we see our self, a other person looking back at us, we are lost children sad and scared, always alone looking for the shafting of love that we can't find, the mirror that never liars hurts more then the truth in side, as ugly as we get closer to death, we cry so many times, and wish to go back in time, the mirror is the sadness of the Image that no one can ever see how weak we can be, when we have nothing to believe to make us stronger, I don't want to die alone with out love in my short painful life, but the truth hurts more then a lie, and as I see a old sad man looking back at me, its scary to think this is me looking back at me.

what is money that people love about it, to sell there body and soul, I'm sick about money and what power it fucking bring, this is your fucking God you guys follow a paper from a tree, to by toys and things that dont last to long, but yet we are hook by these things like drugs always need more, blood money that what I call it made by man that want to be God, as we work so hard not for pride, but for money we forgotten our health and the real meaning of life, I see the world that always have a price, nothing is free look around and you know what I mean, its sad that water, church, love, even having children all has a price to pay, sad to see that if your pool and living on the street you have no respect from the human world as your just a dirty dog, but if your rich or you got some money everyone love you, were is the meaning of giving not taking, were is the feeling of pride of being a good human been, not a pride of how much you make in a day, were is the love just by being your self that it dose not matter if you have money or if you don't. when i was a kid about 14 year old, I ran away from home i had $200. in my hand and the freedom with out my family on my back, in one night I spend it all in the city call Waikiki, for 3 days and nights I live on the street I never sleep in a hotel room because no money, I was a dirty dog always trying to find a place to sleep but the cops keep kicking me out in the cold night of rain, tire and hungry, I knew no one give a fuck about my age I was just a kid, if I had money then I get help, fuck up this world is.

http://youtu.be/Tc39FWso7vY You open my eyes and made me believe in love and dreams, you gave my a new reason and a new being of my life to live, as the world will always be dark and blind to me, I pray for an angel to show me the light and get me out from the maze of my pain, let me be love by you, let me be part of your world, as I'm Afraid to be alone with out your love setting me free from the cage I was always been trap by, I'm have never been so Afraid as I always face death and fight my enemy, I NEVER been Afraid by anyone and anything, but you, you I fear the most because to lose you will kill me and I cant live with such pain over, and over again

I see my self a other person by looking in the mirror that scares me, I see the monster that is trying to get out from the cage that I build to stay lock up in side of me, I know I'm a monster that every one made me, growing up with out love living with fear and learning to hate transform a boy to something evil that I become, my powers come from my anger that I can't Controlled, and the name Sad Man is my tattoo scar that won't go away, who wants this life that I am living now, who can love a monster that is trying to be human man......

I'll never forget the way you looked When I saw you there that night; The way that you just seemed to glow In the warm and gentle light. If every time you crossed my mind A drop of rain should fall, We could swim on forever In the greatest ocean of them all. If every time I was proud of you A flower bloomed anew, I could walk on eternally In a garden next to you. If every time I craved your lips A star was placed in sight, Darkness would never fall upon Our love of endless light. If every time you touched my heart A bell would somewhere chime, We could listen till the end of days To the music thats yours and mine. My love and heart are yours Every time my beautiful wife

true love means never giving up even if it looks bad, problems need to be fix not run away from, and the person that ur married to cant be replace by a other beautiful face, I love her, I need her, I want her so bad, I'm her husband, she's my wife, a 1000 times we fight with problems, and jealousy that drive us crazy I cant leave my baby as we need each other to survive, this is a test of manhood and a price of falling in love that we must work hard not play for fun, married is about surprising, building and fixing problems when it comes, I SO SORRY for always fighting u my wife I'm sorry for being always Jealous of all ur friends and people who is around u, I'm always scared that someone will steal u always from me, ur my beautiful angel wife, and I always be ur protector, I will do what even it takes to keep u happy and safe, as I'm the black dragon staying by ur side now and forever. I love u so much my angel never think u can be replace with and pretty face...........

she is a gift from God, and beauty of all the angels, her smile, her looks, the way she is so amazing, so always perfect to me, my wife is my PRINCESS that I follow her every were and do anything to make her happy, even give up my life, always she's in my mined, and in my dream were she so close to me, she knows that I love her so much more then any men can ever love a woman, she knows me that I'm not a talker, I'm a person that always do the action, God and her mom and dad gave me my wife to love forever and I Promise to all of them to always love my wife and protect her in the end of my life, I'm very lucky to have this wonderful woman.... From: Mr.Real SadmanKen

some people can get Love so easy, some have to work very hard to be with there soul mate, for us it's very hard to be together as we are far apart from each other, I always wonder why life can't be easy for me just this one time, I wish that we can be the lucky one to meet each other here in the same town same place loving each other, getting marry now and being happy, everyone tell me to give up her, and find a other girl to love, some even try to set me up in a blind date from here in Hawaii, but I don't love anyone, there not my true love, my soul mate, only my wife was the one that God pick for me, she's my half of my lose soul that I been looking for many years with pain and sadness for 37 years, now my search is over she is my true love, she is good part of my soul, so why do I need a other pretty woman, if I already have the most beautiful woman in the world, true love dose not mean everything comes so very easy and free, we always have to work harder and have faith, even if we suffer to the port of pain, we must try and believe that one day we be together forever, listen to ur heart and not anyone less and have faith in love as love is magic to dream. I Love u Nicole Tio, soon everything will pay off because we will have each other.

to my beautiful wife as words are hard to say why I'm in so much pain always sad, tears in my eyes feel like I'm losing my soul and my mined, living alone with out u by my side keeping me alive, now it's feels like dieing, I'm going crazy, I'm changing, living in two worlds that I cant tell apart what is real or what's a dream if I'm asleep, I'm tire of crying as the salt of my tears hurting my face like being on fire, and the scarce on my face from the tears that I cry waiting for u to be my, when will this day end, I have to pick what world I want to live in, that I'm afraid to pick the wrong one, so much pain a man can take, I hate showing u that I'm weak that I have a heart because I train my self to be cold like ice to survivor in this life, but the real truth is I can't survivor with out u, all my training is done now because of u I feel alive, wow this hurt so painful, to be far apart with u, only when I sleep I'm very happy Because u are with me right next to me in bad cuddling me and hearing my baby boy crying in the morning as I hold my son hoping this not a dream it feel so real, then I wake up crying and being mad because I have to live a other day with out u again, not fare that ur there and I'm here... I love u and I'm trying to hold on for u, but I'm getting weak and want to sleep so I can dream of u, so I can hold ur hand now and say this to ur beautiful face yes I do to love and surprise u for the good time and the bad time until death do us apart as Judged made us marry with the paper that ur my and I'm urs forever. :-(

Love is nothing but a dream that is killing me, making me lost in my mined crying to stop this pain, I want to go away, I want to find pace in mined, and fly like a bird just be free from my painful life, now I'm in hell trap in two worlds can't tell what's real, living with out my girl, waiting and waiting is very crazy that is killing me, why do everyone hate me, why do everyone need to hurt me, I just need a brake just for one day, I just need love for one to be one, I just need my wife to love me and be proud of me being her husband and protect, beauty never last forever but my love for her last forever even if we die we always be one light one star that shining so bright in the night, were do I go from here seen now my be loved is so far away from me wait the same as me, visa pass port the only thing that is stopping us for building only beautiful dream.............

What I want for X-mas day and my birthday is my wife gift rap for me to open, nothing more that I can ever wish for, but having her as my gift to be forever, it will always be X-mas day everyday when I have my soul mate, this how my gift will look like when I open it,

Love is hard when she so far away, Love is scary when I dont know what happening over there in Philippines if shes ok or not ok I can tell because I'm not there to protect my baby, Love is make me mad because of her problems she give to me to fix when she still in Philippines because I'm her husband, but she knows that as long as she in Philippines her problems will never go away it will just build up, and I'm trying to be her superman and take her home in Hawaii were belong with me, she will live like a beautiful queen and be spoiled by me, Love is very sad for me because living with out her everyday making me suffer with amazing pain that I wanted to kill my self to end my pain, I was hoping that she come on my birthday covering nothing but CHOCOLATES all over her beautiful body so after she sing happy birthday to me in Filipino words I can eat her up and other things what marry people dose, that would be my best birthday ever to have 2 things I love CHOCOLATES and my wife, God I love her so much, I know there's many beautiful women out there, but I only need one beautiful woman to drive me crazy and that is my Nicole my soul mate, I can never cheat on her, she the only one that I can love and make love to, I hope u understand me, I hope u know how much I love u and i'm always thinking about u, u always in my mined..........

It is a cold sad Christmas day this year again, with my tears are like ice, and my heart stop betting with out no life in me, Christmas day is a sad day for me again, to spend alone waiting for this day to end, I'm will spend my Christmas cry and missing u again my beautiful wife, with one hand holding ur picture, and the other hand a strong liquor drinking my pain away, yes it is a sad Christmas day this year again, I wish she was here with me in joying this holiday, as u cook for me a Christmas dinner in ur way trying something new with ur cooking Filipino food that taste mmmmmmmmm very good as we do things together, in the end it's a perfect holiday as we cuddling each other in bed loving each other, and hoping this will never end, I wish it was real and now, but again I spend alone on a sad Christmas day. marry Christmas to all and have a happy good times being together. :-(

who am I as u wonder, I am a man like no other man, I dont live like a normal man should live, some say I'm cold and heartless because I only see the black with the blue in the world, some say that I am very boarding I dont know the meaning of fun and how to be a kid in heart, because I grow up to fast to not know the meaning of being a child, always being poor and growing up in a crazy family looking like a freak, I had to learn to be street smart, not book smart, I only live for one thing and one thing only is my beautiful wife that gave me a reason of life to try harder to fight in this life time, there is nothing more in my life but to see my wife always happy with joy in life meaning if she's proud of me then that is a good life to live for me, because that is my way of showing my wife how much that I love my wife, my love is never fake to being with.