Interests & Hobbies
Meaning of Life:
The meaning of life is to accept and understand the relationship between existence and nonexistence. Without dark matter, there is no field or support for all that is tangible. Same goes for spiritual existence.
Five Things I Can't Live Without:
The emotional spectrum, music and the physical rhythmic reaction to it, verbal interaction and collaboration, questioning what is in front of me, and experiencing genuine contentedness with the present moment.
Favorite Books:
I love books with a theme of coming of age or going through hardships in adolescence. This may be because of my age and ability to relate to the characters, or simply an interest in the psychological effects of the stories. Books are superior to movies in the sense that what you read is up to your interpretation. Your brain is forced to create an idea of the setting and characters based on how they're described, and usually your perception of it reflects your subconscious needs and your current state in life. Reading the same book twice at different points in life can be like reading two entirely different stories; you may know what is coming, but the way you experience it is totally different. With that being said, some of my favorite books are Perks of Being a Wallflower, Speak, Define Normal, The Whirligig, and the Dubliners. I typically prefer other free form kinds of literature over novels.
Favorite Songs:
All styles of EDM, particularly dubstep, trap, hardstyle, trance, and house, psychedelic rock, blues, jazz, hip hop, trip hop, dub, reggae, dancehall, and much more.
Favorite Movies:
I like movies that are visually appealing and that provoke thought. Also, unsurprisingly, movies about drug addictions and the like. Donnie Darko, A Clockwork Orange, Enter the Void, Catch Me If You Can, Dancer in the Dark, Date Night, Flight, Thirteen
Hobbies:
Expressing myself through various art forms, most often music and dance. I play musical instruments including but not limited to piano, guitar, drums, and clarinet. I've also recently begun exploring creating music electronically. I've been trained in many styles of dance, but prefer a less structured/defined approach to dance, one that combines multiple styles with naturally occurring movement. Other hobbies of mine include cooking, exploring consciousness alteration, obtaining new knowledge and perspective, spending time with friends, traveling, bonding with cats, developing my spiritual theories, and attending raves.
Talents:
Music, dance, making delicious food products, giving lightshows, assisting others, writing, analyzing and expressing thoughts, gaining new knowledge as well as retaining old and making connections to be as informed about the mystery of existence as possible. Perhaps my strongest talent is being a metaphorical sponge, absorbing everything I can take in.
Perfect Mate:
Someone who will treat me with the utmost respect. Someone who will be understanding and patient with my anxiety which sometimes dampens the mood of the day; sometimes in social situations I become so nervous that I have no choice but to use an escape rope. (If you get that reference, you may qualify as a perfect mate.) Someone who will be willing to put up with the extreme amount of emotion across all ranges that I emit. In other words, I am extremely excitable and fun-seeking while in a good mood, but in a bad mood I become very angsty and hard to please. As my lover, you have the ability to change my mood even if I'm being impossible; if you did not, I wouldn't be with you. Someone whose idea of fun includes getting ridiculously stoned, cuddling, playing hours of video games, discovering new music, eating food, and fucking. Someone who is not extremely well endowed (if male, as I'm open to all love) because I hate being stabbed repeatedly in the cervix. Someone who is capable of both fucking me stupid AND teasing with tedious, cautious, passionate sex. Someone who is willing to adapt to a somewhat insomniac lifestyle, or at least someone who enjoys observing the sleep deprived. Someone who will make me their priority when the relationship is official. Someone who will not rush me into any stage of the relationship; relationships require a strong foundation that, in my opinion, is best supported by a strong friendship prior to dating. Forming relationships with blind dates or someone you've met briefly is messy because there is a higher pressure to impress your mate; lies will almost always be told to appear more appealing. Someone who respects my decision to hyphenate my name upon marrying someone (if I even decide to marry, I don't believe certificates or ceremonies are necessary to prove eternal love) so that my family name can carry on. Someone whose vice is neither alcohol or cigarettes. In fact, it's best if you don't smoke cigarettes at all and drink only once in a while. I am not one to handle my liquor well. I do better with hallucinogens and find it easier to have a connection with someone who'd rather spend a night tripping with me than getting trashed. Someone who understands the importance of good speakers. Someone who is logical and patient to balance out my irrationality and short temper. Someone who can tell when I'm lying. Someone who is open with me. Someone who shows genuine interest in my body and more importantly, my mind. It's easy for me to bare myself to hundreds of people, but an invitation to my deeper cognition requires a great deal of trust. Someone who will not quit doing the things they did to win me over once I'm theirs. I'm not high maintenance, but I do expect consistent behavior over time. I hate when people get lazy in relationships because I hate feeling like I'm putting forth more effort. My biggest downfall with love is that in the beginning of most relationships, I need to be convinced to fall for the person, but over time I become more into the relationship. The tables turn and suddenly I'm struggling to get that person's attention. Perhaps it is true that men are attracted to the chase, and that's why "hard to get" is played so often by females. I like feeling like the person I'm with sincerely cares to hear about my interests. I have a hard time getting along with people who do not enjoy exploring altered consciousnesses, due to a barrier of understanding of existence and therefore an inability to understand my philosophies and theories. You'd also better be prepared for a shit ton of random and seemingly useless information.
Perfect Date:
A stroll or cruise through a scenic place hand in hand with you, getting lost in the depth of an engaging conversation, showing affection and having a good balance between those moments where you lock eyes and feel a surge, and playful comic relief. Spending money to go on a typical dinner/movie/mini golf/etc date isn't necessary, but I can't say I don't like being treated now and then. Even if it's just making food together at home, eating with someone I'm dating is a strangely intimate experience for me. I am shy eating around most people, so enjoying a meal together shows I am comfortable being myself around you. Observing and analyzing art on a date is extremely fulfilling, whether it be a visitation to a musical/theatrical/dance performance, an art gallery or museum, or browsing through the vendor's shops at street festivals. If you manage to show patience in attempting to bed me, ensuring that the first few dates are more mentally than physically engaging, the night may have a happy ending. When treated like a lady in the streets, I am quite the freak in the sheets. You'll see the wilder sides of me the more gentlemanly, polite, and respectful you are to me in non-sexual situations.
Turn Ons/Offs:
yum: people who are passionate, sensitivity, confidence, talent, good communication skills on an intimate level, when someone has a hobby or interest that they will blab about all the time. There is nothing sexier than noticing a true inner desire to express the passion for their hobby in one's body language, voice, and choice of words. It implies that you have adequate capacity to love a human with the same intensity.
yuck: people who prefer sex to cuddling, people who refuse to recognize their emotions, people who lack a sense of humor, people who cannot detect sarcasm, people who are unfamiliar with their sexuality, people who make it their goal to have slept with more people than all of their friends, when people shock me with sudden extreme change, people who are judgmental, sexist, racist, or in any way consistently circulating negativity or bad karma.