Well, I was a personal assistant, running errands, taking orders, scrubbing toilets and making coffee for a living. It wasn't the worst job in the world, but it wasn't the best. The person I was working for wasn't exactly a nice guy, and had a special way of making you feel incapable and useless . I remember thinking about how little dignity this job made me feel I had, on a daily basis. I remember one day, specifically. On my knees scrubbing a toilet, thinking, this is it. I've had enough. I have to do something more than this with my life. This isn't me. I've got to make something of myself, there's just no other way. Of course I always saw myself doing something more meaningful and important. But money was money, right?

A friend of mine, one day, suggested I become a cam model, I laughed it off. Yeah right.

He told me he had known a girl that did it and was successful, saying she didn't even have to take off her clothes or anything. This intrigued me. I had thought about doing it for years due to the fact that I had known a few people that had done it, but I just could not bring myself to do it. It just didn't seem... right? Although I had never had someone so close to me in my life suggest that I actually do it.

I took a few days and thought about it. And what I thought about was this.

If I was going to do it, what kind of guys would it be that I would be talking to? What kind of people would I meet on these kind of sites? Well, the answer I arrived at was probably people that thought for some reason they couldn't go out and talk to girls in real life. For whatever reason. There's got to be more than one demographic here, obviously. The guys that have beautiful social lives but just come here to fap. Of course there's the married guys. And also the guys that are just bored and like to hang out. But then there's the ones who perhaps have insecurities, perhaps they have really bad social anxiety. Perhaps they thought that they are unattractive and therefore cannot get a girl in real life. While some of these things may not be true, perhaps they have actual physical deformities. Maybe they really just weren't dealt a very good hand in life. And over and above all perhaps maybe they really just need someone. Someone to talk to even. And that's when it occurred to me, that maybe in some way I could be helping people. maybe I could offer them something they don't get elsewhere. Maybe even just the company and time spent with them is more valuable to some people than others. Maybe not everyone would understand that, the but those people would. Not everyone understands what it feels like to be truly alone. But it exist for some people, whether the reasons be real or fake. So these are all the main reasons I told myself. Looking back at it now I can see that there was one more reason I forgot about, and that reason is, ironically enough, that while I engaged in many social activities at the time I was very much alone, myself. Everyone feels this way sometimes, just kind of wandering around... wondering what you're doing, What value you bring to the world, and what are you good at. Sometimes wondering if you'll ever find your calling in life.

It was probably about a week later when I decided to give it a try. I can honestly say it's something I never saw myself doing. Or being any good at for that matter.. But I can also honestly say that camming is the best thing that ever happened to me. In this past year, I have met some of the most amazing people I've ever met in my entire life.

Yes, this is what I do for a living. This is how I make money. But that doesn't mean that you can't love what you do. Camming has taught me that. All I want to do is help I know that may sound cliche or not easy to believe but it is the truth.. and that is why I started camming.

A few months after I started camming, I ended up quitting my day job. This (camming) has since become my only income. I then decided to start taking camming more seriously. I still have my same basic motivations as to why I love to help people. But it has become a new game. This was my chance to actually be GOOD at something. Something I'm good at. Something that can make me feel proud of myself.

I strive to be the very best that I can be in camming and in all aspects of my life, and to achieve my goals and aspirations on MFC and elsewhere. A fire has since burned inside of me, a fire that cannot be put out.

My regulars have been there for me since the very beginning. And they also do everything in their power to see me succeed. I think that together we make a great team and all that matters is the underlying motivation to help all.

It's funny because something that I wasn't really expecting, is to meet so many people that also share the same love for helping others as I do. One of the first things I noticed about MFC is how different the regulars are from how I thought they would be. Sure some of them are still pervs and weirdos, but they still love to help people, and are actually, genuinely, good people. And besides, I love those pervs and weirdos! They are my best friends! They're my family. They are my everything. And with them, and only them, I feel right at home. Thank you for giving me a place where I can feel that way, a place to come home to every day and be with those that I love. A place where I can feel safe, and relax, and just have a good time. And most importantly a place where I can just be myself.

Truly be myself.

Thank you for making my life better. Thank you for being so amazing. And thank you for making me the happiest and most successful I've ever been. And most importantly, thank you for just being there, listening to me, helping me, and just being my friend. You have no idea how much it means to me. And I could never articulate it into words. This was just an attempt to.

Some people may find me crazy for saying it, but it doesn't make it any less true. You guys have truly helped me become who I am today, and that gratefulness uncontrollably turns into love. I love you. I love you all.

As I've said, camming is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. It has truly changed my life. And I hope, and strive for every day, that even if just in some small way, I can change your life for the better too.

-Flaxi