Interests & Hobbies
Meaning of Life:
Im still looking, still building the path;
stepping forward without sensual lack;
catching waves , realising the prison;
Oh lord, i need reasoning.
Why? Because Im restless prisoner;
of being human, that one, incapable;
to distilate its mind from deludism;
oh nature, why you choce me,
why opened the eyes to nothingness,
I want feel special, i want feel great,
I want feel human again.
you break my bones
you erode my hopes
i cant complain, its up to you;
which dices to roll, what light to spread;
i love you afterall, and will obey;
oh nature, please misleade me positivly.
Edit:
As we all, I was made to die;
To play game " Life" In disguise;
To cry, deprive myself and smile ;
To younglings " Thats what life is about".
Majority of people gonna grind you dry,
but dont give up, rain walks alongside;
The only reason why would anyone create you to is to be alive,
Is... to die in a way never seen, never witnessed, never recognized.
I really dont know what to write next
I was depressed at a time we texted.
I dont want to die.. I dont want to be alive...
But only God knows how to escape this standing butcher on my side..
which is called life.
Five Things I Can't Live Without:
Oxygen, sleep, water, food, favorable weather conditions
Favorite Books:
Eric Fromm 'to have or to be', stephen hawking "the grand design", one of aquinas books, tho have no idea its name in english. basically anything scientific, that is about something. i just like knowing lol.
Edit: Most influential book was " the sixth extinction". From that day I recycled, I changed my consuming choices. Could I ever dream that humans would cause issues for frogs.
What I Like To Do For Fun:
I honestly currently enjoy listening pod-casts or debates. I'm just soaking all that information like sponge, and it helps me to have a fairly reasonable understanding of the environment I am in and predict my own biases. I like to read informative books( not very into romances). I like to research, although i lack interest in specific field and often I just don't know which topic I should research so I get 'hooked' onto weirdest things.
Favorite Songs:
How i wish, how i wish you were here... were just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl year after year.... running over the same old ground and how we found the same old fears..... wish you were here.... those were amazing times( sadly without internet)
Edit: Im not sure I like music.
Favorite Movies:
Any movie that has deep moral message.
Trully liked seried "The Black Mirror" It shows how possible future technology might interact with our lifes in quiet scary ways.
Edit: Black mirror flopped, still good tv series, but aint the same. Currrently obsessed with Aniara & Platform. Also guilty plessure is Vivarium. Tho european film makers has been killin it recently ( In genders i like).
If I Could Be Anywhere Right Now:
or rather in which time (?) hehehe
mDuring meet up : sex is okay, compliments are okay.Im so submissibe I like everything.
Hobbies:
jigsaw puzzles, reading, video games
Edit: Same old.
Talents:
Good hand. I draw pretty well. I also can move my ass pretty well. i know how to say simple things in interesting way( although that is done much easier in my native languange, because of wider vocabulary).
Edit: Wow, I was fairly narcissistic in this entry wasnt i? also * language
*rainbow*PROGRESS*rainbow*
Perfect Mate:
intelligent, with good sense of humor, sensible
Edit: This is a stupid question that makes no sense.
Perfect Date:
lots of candles, romantic music, pasta... lol, just kidding. perfect date is any date with perfect mate. but i would be very pleased if guy is understanding, pays for himself, keeps certain sexual distance until certain time, respect, RESPECT!.
Edit: Oh my. I was young when filled it.
Turn Ons/Offs:
People who know who they are, those who respect their own views, also others, those who like to discuss and are acceptant to every angle( life is complex), those, who seek to see good in every bad, and bad inevery good( its not always possible , but scepticism is what makes life move forward, questions, seeking for knowledge). //Guys who use phrase " Thats because youre a woman" in sentences not related to birth giving and its related things. I dont like biased people.
Edit: Depends on situation// Guys who use phrase " Thats because youre a woman" in sentences not related to birth giving and its related things. I dont like biased people.
Best Reason to Get to Know Me: