antidreamgirl
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Let This Lemon Add Some Zest to Your Life!
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About Me
Username:
antidreamgirl
Gender:
Female
Body Type:
Slim/Petite
Ethnicity:
Caucasian
Hair:
Brown
Eyes:
Hazel
Weight:
115 pounds
Height:
68 inches
Country:
Canada
Sexual Preference:
Straight
Smoke:
Non Smoker
Drink:
Non Drinker
Marital Status:
Involved
About Me:
Hello hello and welcome to my corner of the internet! I don't want to waste your time so I like to say right off the bat that I'm non-nude and I don't do explicit stuff. If that's okay with you and you'd like to learn a bit about me keep reading! I'm going to try to keep this shorter than my original profile (which was I forget how many thousand words....) but I do like to be understood, and man can I ever ramble.
My name is Ellie and I'm 30 years old. Like many of the streamers on here, life has thrown me a few curveballs. I think things are finally coming together, though. I'm relatively healthy and ecstatic to be starting back at school full time in the new year. It wouldn't have been possible for me to make the progress I have without the incredible people I've met through and the incredible support I've gotten on MFC.
As I child, I was one of those high-strung, annoying overachieving types who joined every club and obsessed over grades. I loved my friends and I loved learning. I wanted to be a scientist most of the time. Whatever I was going to do, I was determined to be great at it. It was never as easy as it apparently looked for me from the outside, but it wasn't until IB (grade 11) that I became completely unable to keep up in school. I went from a bundle of anxiety to a blob of depression (which, in some ways, was a good thing). I did manage to bounce back somewhat and went on to university, but it wasn't until after my mostly unsuccessful first year that we found out why it seemed I had all this potential that I wasn't using and why things were harder for me than they were supposed to be. I had grown up with undiagnosed dyslexia and ADHD. The ADHD had become pretty evident in high school and honestly I was such a chaotic, messy, creative, energetic child that it should've been obvious all along, but the dyslexia was an absolute shock.
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old bio: I use this platform for non-explicit, mostly interaction-based streams, featuring everything from word games to indoor archery in my basement bedroom. You are welcome to say hi and participate in whatever activity or discussion is going on, or, if you prefer, just enjoy my melodic greetings as background noise. /
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If you are using this site your its pornographic content, you are absolutely better off putting your tokens towards other models. MFC is full of skilled performers making quality adult/NSFW content. I am not one of them. Before you even consider tipping, please note that I am non-nude, I generally don't take requests, and I have health problems make me extremely unreliable (let's be real... I've always been flaky *cough adhd *cough* but since I got sick it's times a million). Even when I am offering something specific, like x when a countdown is reached, there is a chance that I wont be able come through with it as planned. I can go from feeling fine by my standards to unable to function in minutes. If you are sensitive to feeling swindled, please do not tip me. I sincerely do not want your tokens unless you want me to have them and your motives are ultimately intrinsic, i.e. unless you genuinely want to support me and would rather miss out on a show than see me push myself through symptoms in a way that could harm my health. Thank you in advance for respecting that!
I have been so touched by the patience understanding I have been afforded. /
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quicky biography:
I am a twenty-seven year old academia wannabe turned housebound chronic illness patient. I fell ill at 21 (in 2015) when I came down with a bad case of mononucleosis from Epstein-barr virus. After my initial 'false' recovery (when my body had fought off the infection itself but the damage to my system remained), I progressively got sicker and sicker until I was no longer able uphold my studies, maintain employment, or even leave the house without hellish symptoms to pay. When I wasn't sleeping, I would mostly be sitting alone in a darkened room. That was my life pretty much every single day. I was a shell of my former self. It was miserable, but I was fighting to stay positive and make the most of it. //Note: If you are interested in learning more about this type of illness I have included some of my preferred sources below: (A lot of new people are falling ill with a post-covid version of the disease and doctors often don't know how to recognize it so it's a good thing to educate yourself on. I went through one of the darkest times of my life while I was getting sicker and didn't know what was happening me so raising ME awareness is one of the most rewarding parts of MFC.)
My absolute favourite is ME action
https://www.meaction.net/learn/what-is-me/
there's also:
https://www.cdc.gov/me-cfs/about/index.html
https://me-pedia.org/wiki/Myalgic_encephalomyelitis
https://solvecfs.org/
the mayo clinic and medline plus' articles on ME are adequate as well. / /
Joining MFC was one of many attempts to find meaning in an existence of suffering and limitations, and it turned out better than I ever could have imagined. Largely thanks to the outstanding support I have received from the people I've met here, I have been able to afford resources to dramatically improve my health. I have made friends for life and enormous strides in my functionality. My quality of life is light years better than I thought would ever be possible again. The light at the end of the tunnel, which for me is returning to my studies, is within view. /
I love learning. From the time I was a small child I have been passionate about the world and about understanding how things work and why they are the way they are. /
I value science and justice and rationality. Someday I will use my experiences as a patient to make the world better for people in the same kind of difficult situations I have faced (or so I keep telling myself). /
I care about stuff. There are many causes near and dear to my heart, but because of what I've been through, what stands out to me as most fundamental and what I want to dedicate myself to is universal accessibility to compassionate healthcare. I am forever grateful to those who have been and continue to be essential in helping me get what I need. I intend to honour them by living my best life possible, and, ideally, using the opportunity that I've been given to extend that gift to others. Chemistry is still the subject that gives me chills and excites me like nothing else, but when I continue my undergraduate studies, instead of resuming my chemistry degree, I plan to enter a health sciences bachelor program with my sights set on an eventual career in healthcare.
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Interests & Hobbies
Meaning of Life:
There isn't a set one, which used to really bother me, but isn't that kind of a relief if you think about it? If there's no divine, absolute meaning it means you can't live your life wrong. The meaning of life is what you make of it.
Favorite Books:
Okay, this is kind of a complicated question because I am a reader and I do like books (I have an enormous collection even after several rounds of trying to downsize) so I feel like I should have good answer, but I mostly read articles these days and when I do read actual books or use my audible it's usually just the sections of some nonfiction that pique my interest the most. My preference for nonfiction basically comes down to intellectual laziness; I like it because it's a more direct way to learn about the world; you still need to consider the same things about biases of the author and context yada yada - but there's less work to do to get to what it's trying to say or what it does say or what you can get out of it. Anyway, for any of the books that come to mind as potential favourites it's either been so long since I've picked them up that I feel like they don't count anymore, or they're something I technically never read cover to cover which feels like shouldn't count either. Instead, I will offer my favourite genres: self help and text books in topics such as biology and chemistry, and list some of the preferred classics I did in high school (I couldn't even keep up in IB but it's still the most I've ever read): Wuthering Heights, The Poinsonwood Bible, Like Water for Chocolate, Pride and Prejudice, 1984,
Talents:
magic empathy, making people teary, reading words as other words, coming across as smarter than I am, heart-touching, booboo-healing kisses, cat whispering, drooling an impressive amount in my sleep
Turn Ons/Offs:
Turn ons: Ben Shapiro's eyebrows
Turn offs: Ben Shapiro
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