Interests & Hobbies
Meaning of Life:
I've spent too much precious time worrying about what I think it is. What comes to mind as I think about my existential dread is this quote:
"I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet."
-Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar.
Our life is a series of decisions that we have to make during our limited amount of time. Sometimes 'not deciding' ends up being a decision for you, because time won't wait for you to be ready. It passes through you mercilessly. You decide for yourself how many figs you can carry.
"I don't know what I ate, but I felt immensely better after the first mouthful. It occurred to me that my vision of the fig tree and all the fat figs that withered and fell to earth might well have arisen from the profound void of an empty stomach."
-Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar.
The character thinks differently after they've been fed.
I think it's important to live our lives making sure we don't go hungry so we don't have clouded judgment. We should try to be physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually taken care of.
Life is what you make it. You decide for yourself how many figs you can carry. You decide for yourself which life is the one for you.
The only thing we can all agree on is that we have limited time.
Five Things I Can't Live Without:
Ignoring the obvious physical necessities like food, water shelter, and hygiene:
1. Physical contact
2. Family
3. Romantic love
4. Pets
5. Music
Favorite Books:
I used to be obsessed with Twilight, let's just get that out of the way. I did most of my reading as an adolescent so keep that in mind when I list the things I've loved. The Mortal Instruments series by Cassandra Clare, Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn, Identical by Ellen Hopkins, Crank trilogy by Ellen Hopkins, Impulse #1 and #2 by Ellen Hopkins, The Host by Stephenie Meyer, The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins, The Infernal Devices series by Cassandra Clare, The Darkest Powers series by Kelley Armstrong, Wicked novel series by Nancy Holder and Debbie Viguie, If I Stay #1 and #2 by Gayle Forman, Before I fall by Lauren Oliver, Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist by David Levithan and Rachel Cohn... I'll add more if I remember to.
What I Like To Do For Fun:
My hobbies, masturbating, dancing, Netflix, YouTube, stand-up comedy, going out to eat, and working.
Favorite Songs:
I love pop, indie, dance, electronic, rap, hip-hop, R&B, blues, rock, punk, pop-punk, grunge, alternative, classical, country, folk, soundtrack, post hardcore, etc..
I don't like every single song in the world, but I try to keep an open mind. I have public playlists you can check out on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/user/1dta1uu4vj2xnj2x0euxjsmi8?si=myRV94bzQJu0g_LOPu_kWw
Favorite Movies:
Gone Girl, Fight Club, Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, Perks of Being a Wallflower, Pineapple Express, The Hangover, Big Daddy, Mulan, The Little Mermaid, The Land Before Time, Little Miss Sunshine, When a Stranger Calls, American Pie, Harry Potter (all of them), Thirteen, Slumdog Millionaire, To All the Boys I've Loved Before, Gerald's Game, Transformers (just the first one), Sleeping With Other People, Mean Girls, The Breakfast Club, My Best Friend's Wedding, P.S I Love You, A Bug's Life, Hercules, Superbad, The Notebook, 21 Jump Street, 22 Jump Street, Lady and The Tramp, Titanic, Youth in Revolt, Chloe, Jennifer's Body, Horrible Bosses, Something Borrowed, Madagascar, The Sisterhood of the Travelling pants (both movies), The Changeling, The Silence of the Lambs, Vanilla Sky, Ex Machina, The Matrix (all of them), The Lord of the Rings (all of them), The Hunger Games (all of them), The Source Code, Bowling for Columbine, Across The Universe, The Change-Up, Freaky Friday, Georgia Rule, Dumplin', The Girl Next Door, Blackfish, Kill Bill (both), Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Get Him to the Greek, .. I bet I left some good stuff out. TBH I spend more time watching TV shows anyway, I'm surprised that didn't get a section.
Craziest Thing I've Ever Done:
It depends on who you ask, some people would think working in adult entertainment at all is pretty crazy. The pegging I've filmed before is still crazy to some people, as another example. Public sexual encounters could be considered "crazy" lol you see where I'm going with this.
If I Could Be Anywhere Right Now:
I would be at a family gathering with everyone sitting around a fire. I miss my hilarious and witty relatives a lot during my regular day to day life.
Hobbies:
Reading, story writing, poetry writing, song writing, hiking, acting, painting, drawing, concert going, indoor gardening, photography, yoga, video games, board games, karaoke, snow boarding/skiing, beer/wine tasting, people watching, playlist building, and hopefully someday soon; travelling.
Talents:
I can lick my elbow lol there's more, but I would encourage you to keep up with me to see what I choose to showcase.
Perfect Mate:
Someone romantic, who genuinely likes the things I like. They would be woke, artistic, love sharing food, smell incredible, have beautiful eyes, and they'd make me laugh till it hurts. My perfect person would make me the best version of myself by believing in me. Ideally, someone who also has a high sex drive and is harmonious with my adventurous spirit.
Perfect Date:
Ordering food in, playing video games, and watching something together with lots of sex and cuddling mixed in all night.
OR
Dinner at a trendy restaurant followed by a live show. Drinks on the way home. Making out on the way inside and of course ending it with some epic lovemaking.
Turn Ons/Offs:
Turn offs: Indifference, pouting, whining, nagging, emotionally manipulative behavior, poor hygiene, time wasters, trump supporters, bigots, misogynists
Turn ons: Confidence, generosity, intelligence, integrity, style, taste, humor, wit, kindness, hips, breasts, good butt, muscle definition, submission, authenticity, shared music taste, shared politics.
Best Reason to Get to Know Me:
We might have a lasting impact on each other.