I return again in MFC for reason I could give but I know it is not important and no one would be interested. I today hear the girl say my name in chat and wonder what this means and why she would do such. I know I have no control here but wonder why she would mute me so I cannot contact her yet say my name in her chat. I have given up already as I know there is nothing I can do, but my mind always wants to understand cause and reason. I know I did nothing wrong so this is not my fault, and I have no ill will. 'We continue' Such is life.

There was this girl I become infatuated with and followed here to MFC from other chat site.

After long time chatting she tell me that she cannot give me what I want, but I do not know what it is she thinks I want. Thjis remind me of story about game theory:

A young boy enters a barber shop and the barber whispers to his customer, This is the dumbest kid in the world. Watch while I prove it to you. The barber puts a dollar bill in one hand and two quarters in the other, then calls the boy over and asks, Which do you want, son? The boy takes the quarters and leaves. What did I tell you? said the barber. That kid never learns! Later, when the customer leaves, he sees the same young boy coming out of the ice cream store. Hey, son! May I ask you a question? Why did you take the quarters instead of the dollar bill? The boy licked his cone and replied, Because the day I take the dollar, the game is over!

I feel like it is lost, I make silly jokes to try to stop myself thinking about the sadness that I feel in life because I have been programmed to hold integrity and truth above all.

I never joked about what I think, but I realise I cannot change myself to make others have different opinion of me. Getting angry or fighting will not help, lieing will not end without worse outcome, when you have lost you must start another game. You can never really know if every other person in the game is a sociopath or who anyone really is.

I am worried my foot is going to fall off

I am watched this video and the room reminds of my bedroom when I was at middle school. It make me remember when I was 12 years age and realised there is no true love, no unconditional love, except my own.



I still think I would probably kick marina out of bed for farting.

tree everybody leaves

I wish The_Dani would remove me from her ignore list.

Words do not fail, people fail. Good luck rorry, I am wish you all best and hope you find happy.

I am so much happys and sads )

I am mad as hell and I am nots going take any more!

I am was watches nice donald trumps new speach, and am was amazed he is somuch younger and make me want make america great again!

:yay
YAY USA!

I am nots a dict!

I am worrieds someone is messing with my profiles posts

I am sure I post videos and now they is gone
Is it devils work?

Who killed the buzz?

Omg, I am super worried as I did seeing this news about suicide in girl on MFC



I am hope you is never have this feelings rorry, I am always support you, but I am fear people is sadist and feeling owns other peoples and buys them.

I am so much sads, I am have problems with me bitcoins and MFC is refuse payments without I am give home address I am waits wishing soon I am gets payment completes. Sorry is for delays

OMG, I am soon wait for transfer of bitcoin in onions routers and am buying MFC maybe tomorrows.

I am would do this sooner but I am sick today with vomits

My mom did come visit me a bring box of hand made creamery fudge, and I did eat whole box, I am thinks maybe I eats too much or maybe fudge packer did not wash hands and I am getting food poisonings, I am hate unhygienic fudge packers!

Someone did saying my dad is was fudge packer, but it is lies, he is card shark!

Omg, I am remembers this is was music by itzhak perleman or maybe was nigel kennedy when he is was recording his cannabis sessions for jazz club?

But I cannot finds video

I am is worried I am in too deeps